I have been writing. On notepad, post it’s, my journal and in my mind but just not here.
Life has been so real, so raw lately that I have thoughts and questions. I have opinions and epiphanies, but I haven’t been able to blog. It’s like writers blog but on a larger scale.
My amazing, I can’t believe she’s still cheering us on because she’s just awesome friend, is the one who got me back. I so owe her. I had been letting a part of myself fall away without realizing it. It to a #30dayblogchallenge to get me to write finally. You should check her out! Talk about an inspiration. This is someone I completely just admire and love. We’ve known each other a long time but until recently, I didn’t realize how precious of a human being she is! Just one of those blessed moments when I Truly needed it! https://throughsinaisand.blog/
Life, death, taxes, changes in relationships on so many level, some not so good, some downright craptastic and some, well some are miracles when you get down to it. Life is happening and I have to face that. Even when there are loved ones on their way out of this journey of life. Life goes on. How I choose to handle it is up to me. Some days I do all right, and other days, well, I try to not look to hit or smell poorly!
After all this is The Ride. Most days I love the ride. Some days I just need to slow down to figure out where I am on the ride.
Keep Hope Alive.
Remember to hug your family and friends if you can. Tell people how you feel. You never know when the last time is.
I write how I feel and what I am thinking.
I write goofy poems, rhymes and sometimes nonsense.
I write stories and thoughts from other’s lives and things they’ve shared with me or that I have observed.
Often my words have been taken out of context.
Some have tried to use my own words against me.
Some have contacted me and thanked me for sharing as it reflected their own life.
I have received calls, texts and emails asking if I am okay. I can promise you, if it is here, I have most likely processed it and I am doing just fine…probably. Sometimes I allow myself to write raw. That can be dangerous as I just “let it go” and spew onto the paper. Sometimes I keep those and don’t let anyone see it. Sometimes it’s better that way.
When I chose to start a blog, I just did it. I had been told I couldn’t do it or I couldn’t commit to it for even a month. Most of those people aren’t around me anymore. The others I guess are eating their words.
I didn’t know how easy it was but also it is harder too. It’s like a double edge sword.
I still feel somewhat censored but I am working on that. Sometimes saying how you feel is a good thing. Other times even though it is cathartic for me, I may not sound so nice to others. That I even care is impressive to me.
I have always been the one marching to her own beat and being a bit of a rebel.
My blog is MY BLOG. Yet I find myself filtering myself. How ironic is that?
I am seeing what I really need to work on through my writing.
In writing, I find myself again.
For the last 11 months I have been writing this blog daily.
It is my personal challenge to write daily for a year. I have made it 11 months and as of today, I have plans to keep writing through daily until May 20, 2016.
I wonder what I will do once I reach that year milestone.
I know I can’t stop writing. I also wonder if I can keep it up daily! I had no idea how hard it would be.
There is so much I have to do that I didn’t have when I started writing FabulousGracelessness.
Yet I am unsure of what I will do as far as on a daily basis.
I love writing so very much. I love pouring my soul into my blog; however I also love pouring my soul into life!
I guess whatever path I chose I know that I will not stop writing.
It’s in me to put my thoughts out there. They can no longer be contained! I’m not so sure it’s best for everyone but I know that it works for me. Plus, www.fabulousgracelessness.com just auto-renewed for another year so why not?!
Keep Hope Alive!