This photo speaks volumes.
Two pairs of shoes.
Same size for the same boy.
It’s transition time.
He goes from mommy’s to dad’s.
I do everything to make it easy for him.
Sometimes he doesn’t want to go.
He doesn’t always want to leave me, but he loves his dad.
I assure him we both love him and want to spend time with him.
There is something about our bond.
Mother and son.
It isn’t something I can easily articulate.
He was born an old soul.
I saw it in his eyes as I held him in my arms those first nights, alone with him at the hospital.
Just this creature I gave birth to, myself and the kind nurses.
No matter how great my pain, I wanted him with me every time they brought him in from the nursery.
I Knew I would do Everything in my power to protect him.
I didn’t realize how hard that would be, but somehow this child that I created understands.
He knows that I will Love him No Matter What.
He’s learned that life and people are not perfect firsthand.
Including me.
He’s seen more than many children his age because he Sees.
He’s seen death, divorce and sadness.
He has Always known Love from his village.
And his mother.
I am proud of how well he handles life.
His compassion and love of others.
His love of farting and being his crazy boy self.
The songs in his head and dance moves in his soul.
His amazing imagination and abilities to draw what he sees in his mind.
I love this child with my whole being.
But those shoes, they undo me.
He sees me smile and encourage him to have fun, love and enjoy his time with his other family.
He knows I miss him more than I will ever say.
I tell him I am in his heart and always with him.
I wait until he’s back in my arms again for my time.
My life isn’t perfect, but it is full with love.
fabulousgracelessness 