Jealousy


Jealousy doesn’t look good on you.

I don’t understand your reasoning.

I have nothing to hide yet you act as if I do.

You want the world, the moon and stars, but you want me tethered to your side.

I don’t belong yet I am to appear as a trophy or prize?

Shhh, don’t talk, you can’t believe them.

How can you love when you don’t trust?

How can you act for so long?

How can I ever believe anything you say?

Should’ve, could’ve, would’ve…

Keep running because it isn’t welcome here.

Jealousy doesn’t look good on anyone.

Those moments


Those moments you wish everything would slow down, yeah those got to me.

I felt I was running 100 miles an hours and I couldn’t stop, couldn’t, wouldn’t slow down.

It seemed all of a sudden, that moment, where I had a few moments to myself in the first time in what seemed forever.

I had such a moment of clarity.

I could see in every direction where the fractions of my life met up as a whole.

I could see every nuance of the air around me as I reflected on my life stretching out in so many directions.

Like ripples from the center they blow out into the wide world.

I can see myself running around, zooming from part to part trying to keep everything under control.

I can see me finally understand that I truly have no control.

I can see underneath and to the top and sides and all the cracks that are in between and I see where changes need to be made, things need to be corrected and I just need to rest.

I need to let my mind and soul heal.

If only for a moment but the healing has to happen.

When your moment comes make sure to stop and take it because it passes you by so swiftly.

It is gone before you know it and you are off and running again.

Maybe you’re running a bit more blindly because you didn’t just stop for the moment when you should have.

Maybe in those moments you will find hope.

Those lies


Why do you smile to my face and lie?

Why do you say you will take care of someone and steal?

Why do you speak of your religion, showing off your beliefs, yet lie and steal from those who need your help?

I gave you a chance.

I believed you.

You were always so helpful.

You were always willing to “help” out.

How was I to know you would be like this?

You talked a good game.

You said the right things.

I and everyone else believed you.

Your lies were so sweet.

It will be sweet watching karma take you down.

You hurt others by your actions.

You think you know so much?

You have no idea the wrath you have brought upon yourself.

Your sweet talking lies can’t save you.

Seeing is believing and video is proof. The cameras don’t lie.

I hope you can make it after the fallout.

I hope you’re prepared to accept the consequences of your actions.

But see, you gave up your rights when you chose to lie and steal.

You gave into that dark space inside and have done harm to others.

You no longer have the same rights.

I hope you learn from this.

I hope you can find your way back to the truth.

For take I take comfort in knowing that at least you will harm no others.

Not on my watch.

You will be forced to pay for your actions.

You might want to “pray” on it since that’s how you started all this to begin with.

Good luck buttercup.

You messed with the wrong group.

Have a Fabulous Monday from a Fabulous Mama!


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It’s a fabulous Monday and I am apparently a Fabulous Mama!

Many months ago I programmed the being on my phone known as Suri to call me Fabulous Mama. It was in a weak moment of entertainment. I randomly ask Suri for information and most often for directions. Suri’s voice is that of a British dude, again for my entertainment. The device may be smarter than me but I can enjoy some of the perks!

This past weekend the boy and I were out with friends and he got my phone and started asking it random questions. Seeing as how he was saying “doesn’t mommy have a cute booty butt?” and “where are the booty butts here?” Suri did not recognize him and asked him “Are you ok Fabulous Mama?” Needless to say this set off much laughter and amusement with our little group in the local pizzeria and went on into the rest of the evening.

As I was tucking the boy into bed he said, “You know, My lady, that you are My Fabulous Mama! Did you know? Did you know?! You are and Suri said what I already knewed!”

That is all the affirmation I need to know that this will be a fabulously wonderful week!

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Embrace the chaos and keep hope alive!!!

 

I write, I write


I write, I write it’s what I do

I write, I write it may not be for you

I write, I write I cannot stop

I write, I write until I drop

I write, I write I share thoughts of mine

I write, I write to share with human kind

I write, I write now all the world can see

I write, I write I am bit crazy

Take me as I am or walk away


Broken promises

Conditional love

Adoration

Delusions

Judgment

Forever

I am wrong

Your flaws

My flaws

My sins are greater

I’m selfish

It was my fault

Make others pay for anger against me

Selfish

Thoughtless

Then I stood up for me and mine

I said take me as I am or walk away

You walked away

I am strong

I don’t give up

I keep hope alive

I am the Phoenix

I will rise from the ashes

 

 

Selfies


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In the world of smart phones and instant access to upload anything to the World Wide Web, people have become obsessed with the selfies and photographing of themselves to share with everyone and “sometimes” just with their “friends”.

I understand folks make money at it and it’s entertaining that they are from all walks of life.

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I’m not too much of a selfie kind of person. Really. Taking photos with my boy, friends and family is more of what I take photos of. Yes, I guess a few selfies here and there (snapchat anyone?!) to share with friends, and when I got glasses or am being goofy, but taking photos of myself all the time is not my thing.

It’s amusing at times, but I prefer not thanks.

I had to get a photo for my badge at work made. It was hideous and sometimes I really think I look like a crazed lunatic with this wild hair and when I smile I look pained or like I need medication stat.

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I have talked with several people through emails and texts over the years now and am greatly amused when I get selfies of friends. Something that is more entertaining is males that feel the need to flood my in-box or texts with photos of themselves. It’s a wee bit creepy.

My sister and I send each other selfies being goofy or “does this look ok? Tell me if I look like a hooker” selfie but that is the kind of selfie I am more familiar with. Those in the moment selfies not the look at me kind… you know?

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So I decided to experiment with the selfie in the mirror type because up until this blog, I have never done it. I was laughing so hard at myself a few photos in because of the poor quality of the mirror, it needed to be cleaned, it was late and I needed sleep! I was experimenting with how much effort some folks put into these selfies. I probably took maybe 20 and only kept 5. Scary I tell you!!

I laugh because I just don’t put that much effort into it. I realized I am more of an “in the moment” kind of person when it comes to this. I am not a “plan out a selfie session” person. That requires more effort than I want to spend taking a photo of myself and more time than I have other than amusing social experimentation!

I really am in awe of these people that do it and actually touch it up with special apps! I’m all proud of myself for cropping and maybe one of those free filters that’s on the smarter-than-me phone.

I realize selfies are a part of how some people are.

I also realize that I am not that way. However, I am sharing a few of the selfies from my experiment! Enjoy and remember these are the select few that made the cut! I also kept the camera in the photos so you could tell it is an actual selfie! Isn’t that the point?!

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Have a fabulous day and keep hope alive!

Throwback Thursday or #TBT


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I love that whole throw back Thursday  #TBT thing.

It does amuse me. It’s like that whole memories thing that Facebook added to remind you of what you posted so that you can recall those memories from however many years ago it was not only when you posted them, but of what they are of.

I enjoy pulling from my own collection is fun too. Remembering when the photograph was taken and what was happening in my world during that time.

I thought that I would share a few with my Fabulous Graceless friends and give you all a good laugh!

The one at the top is when I was around 4 or 5. I have always loved to read and  apparently my family found it entertaining to take a photo of me doing so!

I didn’t change anything from the original photo, not in any of them, so you could enjoy the actual photos as they are.

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The other is of me when I was nearing 17. During what I now consider the beat up your body stages! Who knew that all the gymnastics, from age 5, to cheering, tennis and other sports into my 20’s would create such havoc on my body now! Ahhhhh youth and good joints!

I hope you all have a fabulous ThrowBackThursday!

Keep Hope Alive!