Month: April 2016

Those jolts of life

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Every once in a while I get a jolt in life. I find it quite refreshing actually.

I love living life! The good, bad, loving, ugly, boring, crazy, maotic moments that make up my life, I love all of them.

I am enjoying seeing what each day brings.

Sometimes I am like a little kid in that I want to see what happens next right now! It is hard to be patient.

When I want something to happen, it’s so hard to not push for it to move faster! Even when I know I have no control over life I still wish I could will life into picking up the pace in a few areas… having to wait something out is so very hard. It is during some waiting periods that I seem to get a jolt!

One of those out of the blue type thunderbolts that somewhat shock me into a new perspective and place on my journey. I never know what it will be.

It has always proven to be some sort of adventure though once it happens.

For now I am just riding this latest jolt and seeing where it takes me.

I am definitely enjoying the currents of this one!

Keep hope alive!

 

 

Surviving, thriving or a bit of both

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I miss it so much

Even for a day when the boy is away

It’s too quiet

I have a life and things I can do when he’s gone

Yet nothing compares to the space he fills in my heart

Nor does anything compare to having him with me

My heart splits in two

This feeling is more than any other I have felt in life before

I wonder if I am learning to survive or is this thriving

 

Another procedure bites the dust!

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And another one down

And another one down

Another one bites the dust

Finally another back procedure in the books!

I can only hope this one goes smoothly.

It’s been a while and my body can tell that it’s past time.

I like to try and push things when I can.

Life happens and before I know it I am behind on what I need to do to take care of me.

So today I am taking a time out to help me move better.

If I am really lucky I will get to see my favorite SA!

Keep hope alive for a fabulous day!

 

 

Clock watching

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clock

Clock watching is what I do when I work.

I watch to make sure that people clock in and out as lives depend on it.

I watch to make sure everyone that I’m responsible for is taken care of.

The things that can happen in minutes on a clock watch can change lives.

It can change situations and it can change realities.

With one phone call I can go from calm and cool to chaos and mayhem.

All on a watch.

Clock watching.

It’s what I do.

Clock watching.

Am I watching you?

 

Life is short have fun on the way out

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What you don’t expect to hear from someone regarding a patient on hospice who is bed bound, “They’re having a poker party with booze and blank checks!”

My only thought was “Oh please Lord let him have fun, but don’t let it kill him!”

Or maybe that’s how they want to go out.

Who am I to judge or chose their way?

I say if you’re going out of this world, have fun on the way.

I wouldn’t mind playing a hand or two with them.

Life is short.

Countdown

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10:00

Lights out for a change

Midnight

I don’t need to see the witching hour

1:00 AM

Why are my eyes open again?

2:00 AM

It’s hot

3:00 AM

Potty time

4:00 AM

I must be dreaming

5:00 AM

For the love of all that’s holy I want to sleep!

6:00 AM

Alarm goes off soon but I will snooze

7:00 AM

Countdown complete

I did not really sleep