Do you ever have those times when you just want to be alone but don’t ever seem to have the time?
You never quite take time for yourself but you don’t really pay attention to those warning sirens in your head that say “STOP YOU PSYCHO YOU HAVE TO SLOW DOWN AND TAKE TIME FOR YOURSELF OR I WILL MAKE YOU STOP!” Complete with cymbals, fireworks and other loud noises to make you Listen… Or some kind of something like that!
Yeah welcome to my world!
There’s always something or somebody that needs or wants your attention. Bills, laundry, errands, jobs, family, friends, the list is endless. You may feel guilty for even thinking about it because you feel a responsibility to take care of things ASAP and not consider the importance of You.
It can be overwhelming at times.
Sometimes you do just have to STOP.
For me I have to stop, re-group, attempt to re-organize and remember to Breathe!
I have to let the memories and feelings wash over me and let them do as they may.
I have to embrace them, examine them and try to figure out why I sometimes feel I am ever so slowly losing more of my mind than I feel I have already lost.
I HAVE to have “me” time and have been accused or more than 10 occasions of being “selfish”.
Maybe I am.
Maybe I give and give and go and go and really do need to just stop.
Either way I know I am not alone in feeling this way.
I was talking to a very good friend the other day. We live about 11 miles apart and haven’t seen each other in person in a year.
We have known each other for 20-ish years and we do keep in touch. They are very dear to me and I can’t imagine life without them but yet we don’t “see” each other that much and talk sometimes but not your weekly conversation, more like every few months and we text. We care about each other like siblings. We are there when it counts.
We were talking about this very thing. “Me” time and really how a person NEEDS it.
How yes, you are often considered selfish when you “take it” as if your time belongs to someone other than yourself.
You designate the “me” time.
You give your time to your job, your spouse/significant other, your children, your family and friends. You may spend extra time with charities and hobbies that usually involve others but you don’t always remember to take “time out” for yourself.
And by golly it’s so Important to have “ME” if we are to grow as a human beings.
If you can’t take time, whether it be a few hours a week (even broken down into minutes here and there if you have a family, children or relationship), a day or days if you can to get yourself some quality “ME” time you Will start to unravel.
That is scary. Scarier if you don’t even recognize it.
Because then you start to affect those very people you share your other time with. You start to “float off” when you should be paying attention.
Maybe it affects your health, your relationships, your job.
Maybe it begins as a tiny tear but slowly it begins to eat away at the very fabric of who you are.
Then people ask why your cranky, distant, acting “weirder than normal”. Why you don’t call them back, why you aren’t you your crazy, goofy, demented self.
Then you realize.
I have lost myself.
I have forgotten who I am.
And you Find the time for You.
Because without some me time, there is no Life time.
You can’t share with others what you don’t have.
Find some time for the “me” in You.
I know I am.
Have a fabulously graceless Friday my friends!